So I've been MIA for a very good reason......I was interviewing for a job and then I got it!!!!!!
So life has been about going suit shopping, exercising, preparing for a new lifestyle and getting my shit together. If I may be honest....I am so scared! The job won't be too overwhelming, I don't think. But the whole working and being responsible and waking up early in the morning and being "on" all day.....haven't done that in too long. I know it will come back to me quickly but still....overwhelming and scary and oy!
I'll be fine, I'll be great at my job.....I'm just overwhelmed that I no longer will get to do what I want, my job will dictate that. Our apartment is overflowing with stuff we need to organize and donate since we are moving in about a month to a new apartment - where? we don't know yet! Oy! Do you see? I'm stressed out of my mind!
But luckily, I still make time to exercise so that get's it all out of my head and I can de-stress for about an hour or so.
Oy
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Thursday, August 12, 2010
you know what they say...fourth day blunder
so yesterday it was my choice
today it was my downfall
short-term downfall
i hope
yes, i am still in control but i had a bad day. no, not a bad day, just a not as productive as it could have been day. and that's ok.
i learned something today - i need to make sure that i get out of the house with craig every morning and get my day started early. soon enough i will have a full time job and i wont be able to get used to the mornings if i don't do it now. I need to condition myself for when i will be back in the field.
done.
tomorrow and next week -- i promise to wake up early and get up and out to start my day.
LET'S GO
today it was my downfall
short-term downfall
i hope
yes, i am still in control but i had a bad day. no, not a bad day, just a not as productive as it could have been day. and that's ok.
i learned something today - i need to make sure that i get out of the house with craig every morning and get my day started early. soon enough i will have a full time job and i wont be able to get used to the mornings if i don't do it now. I need to condition myself for when i will be back in the field.
done.
tomorrow and next week -- i promise to wake up early and get up and out to start my day.
LET'S GO
and again on the third
so it's day 3 and I feel great!
I wasn't ready when Craig left the house - I went out on the porch to say good bye and noticed what a beautiful day it was. It made me so happy that I made myself a cup of coffee, grabbed the latest book I've been working on for let's just say a year (oy) and sat on the porch to read. I have to say, it was the first time in well over a year that I felt in control of my life. I wasn't taken over by the mesmerizing TV or the comfy couch....no...I was in control of my day and my life. I read, I had breakfast, I brought out my computer and did job searches. It was fantastic.
I didn't go out for a run. I made that choice on the porch. It wasn't because I had been lounging on the couch, or fell asleep for hours, or I was sucked in by 3 episodes of Desperate Housewives followed by 3 episodes of Grey's Anatomy. No. I made the conscious decision that today I was not going to run, I would do all of my other exercises but not run. There. I made a decision and stuck to it and more so, felt good about it.
I ready until lunch time. Made myself a great and healthy sandwich then decided to work out.
100 situps
40 ab rollers
40 rows on the cables
40 tricep rows on the cables
20 pushups on the cables
30 squats on the cables
3 sets of 10 bicep curls with 8lb weight
3 sets of 10 kick backs with 8lb weight
3 sets of 10 bridges with leg pull in on cables
played with 3lb pilates ball while watching afternoon TV
Best day yet!
I wasn't ready when Craig left the house - I went out on the porch to say good bye and noticed what a beautiful day it was. It made me so happy that I made myself a cup of coffee, grabbed the latest book I've been working on for let's just say a year (oy) and sat on the porch to read. I have to say, it was the first time in well over a year that I felt in control of my life. I wasn't taken over by the mesmerizing TV or the comfy couch....no...I was in control of my day and my life. I read, I had breakfast, I brought out my computer and did job searches. It was fantastic.
I didn't go out for a run. I made that choice on the porch. It wasn't because I had been lounging on the couch, or fell asleep for hours, or I was sucked in by 3 episodes of Desperate Housewives followed by 3 episodes of Grey's Anatomy. No. I made the conscious decision that today I was not going to run, I would do all of my other exercises but not run. There. I made a decision and stuck to it and more so, felt good about it.
I ready until lunch time. Made myself a great and healthy sandwich then decided to work out.
100 situps
40 ab rollers
40 rows on the cables
40 tricep rows on the cables
20 pushups on the cables
30 squats on the cables
3 sets of 10 bicep curls with 8lb weight
3 sets of 10 kick backs with 8lb weight
3 sets of 10 bridges with leg pull in on cables
played with 3lb pilates ball while watching afternoon TV
Best day yet!
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
a successful second day
I know technically it's not saying much, having completed only two days of training in a row, but for me it's a huge accomplishment. I am so proud of myself. I woke up early again, got dressed, had a protein shake and out the door I went to run/jog/walk a mile. AND on top of that, I really didn't feel well. Yes, I was sore from yesterday's workout but also I was feeling a bit sick. But I did it anyway!
So out I went and jogged just under a mile. I came home, had a protein shake and sat down on my couch for a minute and the next thing I know....it's 12:30 in the afternoon!!!! I guess I really needed it!
But like my mentor told me - it's not the end of the world, or your diet/workout/routine, if you make one mistake. Get up and continue along with better choices. So I did.
I made myself a decent lunch and got to working. I had an interview at 3 so I did all of my research and prepared myself for the phone call.
Research went well, phone call went real well (got a formal interview set up), and then I continued along with my workout routine.
3 sets of 10 leg lifts with ankle weights
5 sets of 1 minute pilates twist
3 sets of 10 knee to elbow touches on knees
cleaned up the apartment a bit
4 sets of 10 lunges with 10lb weight
3 sets of 10 squats with 10lb weights
3 sets of 10 lateral raises with 5lb weight
3 sets of 10 shoulder presses with 3lb kettleball
protein shake
not bad for day #2!
So out I went and jogged just under a mile. I came home, had a protein shake and sat down on my couch for a minute and the next thing I know....it's 12:30 in the afternoon!!!! I guess I really needed it!
But like my mentor told me - it's not the end of the world, or your diet/workout/routine, if you make one mistake. Get up and continue along with better choices. So I did.
I made myself a decent lunch and got to working. I had an interview at 3 so I did all of my research and prepared myself for the phone call.
Research went well, phone call went real well (got a formal interview set up), and then I continued along with my workout routine.
3 sets of 10 leg lifts with ankle weights
5 sets of 1 minute pilates twist
3 sets of 10 knee to elbow touches on knees
cleaned up the apartment a bit
4 sets of 10 lunges with 10lb weight
3 sets of 10 squats with 10lb weights
3 sets of 10 lateral raises with 5lb weight
3 sets of 10 shoulder presses with 3lb kettleball
protein shake
not bad for day #2!
Monday, August 9, 2010
Doing real well
Since that mind altering last post I really have made a change. Eat somewhat better, go to classes at the gym that kick my ass and do something for myself everyday. I like this!
Yesterday Craig and I had a big fight that concluded with more life changing epiphanies (the good kind). I am in control of me, my body and my life. LET'S GO!
We went out and got me some cool workout clothes, a big gym bag and.....the Jungle Gym cables!!! Last night, Craig made me a Meal/Workout Regimen for today and so far I have kept up with it.
Got up with Craig and immediately put on workout clothes
protein shake
antidepressants
1 mile walk/jog/sprint
140 sit-up/crunches/ab rollers
protein shake
now it's time to apply to more jobs. Last week I applied to 2 jobs that I am excited about and already this morning I received an email to call in for an interview for the position I was really interested in. Am I allowed to say "IT'S HAPPENING????" soooo exciting. Even if nothing comes of this, at least I can say I got an email back. What a great start to a great week.
Craig measured me last night so I know where I am on this New Beginnings Monday.
Ribs - 31.5
Belly Button - 34.5
Butt/Hips - 41.5
Thighs - 24.5
Arms - 14
Oz says since I am 5'1'' = 61 inches tall my waist should be half of that = 30.5. So I have about 4 inches to loose off of my waist. Not too bad. The width of my arms and thighs really bother me, but that is all going to change real soon. So no worries!
Let's Go!
I updated my resume to reflect the summer job I had and searched for jobs to apply to. I then made whole chicken soup in our slow-cooker, tastes just like my dad's!
Made grilled pork with cucumbers for lunch then another mini workout
Jungle Gym workout:
4 sets of 10 rows
4 sets of 10 push-ups
4 sets of 10 deep squats
a little this and a little that but no snacking, can you believe it? You know, that commercial is true...you start your day off right and you continue making good decisions because you feel better about yourself. Although, like my great and wise mentor tells me, if you get a flat tire you don't pull over and take the other 3 off as well. You fix it the flat and move on. Same goes with making bad decisions. Get up, fix it and let's go!
What's next?
4 sets of 10 bicep curls with 8lb weights
2 sets of 10 push ups
2 sets of 10 triceps push ups
Yeah, I think I did really well today and what's more, I'm going to do it all over again tomorrow!
And what's even more....I liked it!
Yesterday Craig and I had a big fight that concluded with more life changing epiphanies (the good kind). I am in control of me, my body and my life. LET'S GO!
We went out and got me some cool workout clothes, a big gym bag and.....the Jungle Gym cables!!! Last night, Craig made me a Meal/Workout Regimen for today and so far I have kept up with it.
Got up with Craig and immediately put on workout clothes
protein shake
antidepressants
1 mile walk/jog/sprint
140 sit-up/crunches/ab rollers
protein shake
now it's time to apply to more jobs. Last week I applied to 2 jobs that I am excited about and already this morning I received an email to call in for an interview for the position I was really interested in. Am I allowed to say "IT'S HAPPENING????" soooo exciting. Even if nothing comes of this, at least I can say I got an email back. What a great start to a great week.
Craig measured me last night so I know where I am on this New Beginnings Monday.
Ribs - 31.5
Belly Button - 34.5
Butt/Hips - 41.5
Thighs - 24.5
Arms - 14
Oz says since I am 5'1'' = 61 inches tall my waist should be half of that = 30.5. So I have about 4 inches to loose off of my waist. Not too bad. The width of my arms and thighs really bother me, but that is all going to change real soon. So no worries!
Let's Go!
I updated my resume to reflect the summer job I had and searched for jobs to apply to. I then made whole chicken soup in our slow-cooker, tastes just like my dad's!
Made grilled pork with cucumbers for lunch then another mini workout
Jungle Gym workout:
4 sets of 10 rows
4 sets of 10 push-ups
4 sets of 10 deep squats
a little this and a little that but no snacking, can you believe it? You know, that commercial is true...you start your day off right and you continue making good decisions because you feel better about yourself. Although, like my great and wise mentor tells me, if you get a flat tire you don't pull over and take the other 3 off as well. You fix it the flat and move on. Same goes with making bad decisions. Get up, fix it and let's go!
What's next?
4 sets of 10 bicep curls with 8lb weights
2 sets of 10 push ups
2 sets of 10 triceps push ups
Yeah, I think I did really well today and what's more, I'm going to do it all over again tomorrow!
And what's even more....I liked it!
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Fed Up
So I haven't been writing on the blog recently but I have been making changes to my lifestyle.
I go to Yoga and Pilates classes and try to do weight lifting. It's hard to do it on my own since I don't always know what I'm doing and Craig can't be there with me because it's the high season in his company and he comes home super late.
But I'm proud of myself. I try to eat right and always check the nutritional values of what I'm about to eat.
I haven't gone bike riding in about 2-3 weeks but when I did go, I always did 6.2 miles! That's impressive, I think.
Still weigh 150 pounds.
This month has been very busy; I was working 3 days a week, Craig and I both had birthdays and we had lots of visitors every weekend...which means we ate and drank a lot and took a lot of pictures. In looking through the pictures, I can't help but think really bad thoughts about myself. I'm actually pretty shocked that I weigh only 150 pounds. I look huge. I know it's not good to talk like that....but it's true. I know my body. I am little, only 5'1'' (there I said it, I usually add several inches!!!) and have a small frame. But recently, actually probably since I started going out with Craig, I just keep gaining and gaining.
I'm 27 and supposedly in my prime.
It's time to act like it.
Things to do:
Get my life in shape
How:
Being good to my body
Living in a organized and stress-free home
Connecting with the ones I love
Being true to myself
Finding a job that will make me shine
It's true, this can't be about my weight and only my weight. I have been depressed since we moved to NJ a year ago and everything went downhill from there. We left our families and friends, our support network, our jobs, everything that was familiar and safe. It was an adventure. And it has been. Luckily Craig and I are amazing together so we have each other to get through this adventure. It's hard when he is the only one that has a job. He comes home exhausted and I am full of energy because I have someone to play with. So it's time for me to change my lifestyle drastically. I can't keep locking myself in the house because I have nowhere to go and no one to see. I need to get out of the house and live my life for me and for my future. Let's go.
That might need to be my new motto.
LET'S GO!
no more being afraid, no more uncertainty, no more depression, no more excuses and no more failure. Time to take charge of my own life. I am the one in control of me so I should act like it.
(can you tell I've been watching Loosing It With Jillian Micheals?!?!?!?!)
LET'S GO
it's 9am and I am going to the gym. a little cardio and a pilates class. then i am taking the day head on and making it my own
I go to Yoga and Pilates classes and try to do weight lifting. It's hard to do it on my own since I don't always know what I'm doing and Craig can't be there with me because it's the high season in his company and he comes home super late.
But I'm proud of myself. I try to eat right and always check the nutritional values of what I'm about to eat.
I haven't gone bike riding in about 2-3 weeks but when I did go, I always did 6.2 miles! That's impressive, I think.
Still weigh 150 pounds.
This month has been very busy; I was working 3 days a week, Craig and I both had birthdays and we had lots of visitors every weekend...which means we ate and drank a lot and took a lot of pictures. In looking through the pictures, I can't help but think really bad thoughts about myself. I'm actually pretty shocked that I weigh only 150 pounds. I look huge. I know it's not good to talk like that....but it's true. I know my body. I am little, only 5'1'' (there I said it, I usually add several inches!!!) and have a small frame. But recently, actually probably since I started going out with Craig, I just keep gaining and gaining.
I'm 27 and supposedly in my prime.
It's time to act like it.
Things to do:
Get my life in shape
How:
Being good to my body
Living in a organized and stress-free home
Connecting with the ones I love
Being true to myself
Finding a job that will make me shine
It's true, this can't be about my weight and only my weight. I have been depressed since we moved to NJ a year ago and everything went downhill from there. We left our families and friends, our support network, our jobs, everything that was familiar and safe. It was an adventure. And it has been. Luckily Craig and I are amazing together so we have each other to get through this adventure. It's hard when he is the only one that has a job. He comes home exhausted and I am full of energy because I have someone to play with. So it's time for me to change my lifestyle drastically. I can't keep locking myself in the house because I have nowhere to go and no one to see. I need to get out of the house and live my life for me and for my future. Let's go.
That might need to be my new motto.
LET'S GO!
no more being afraid, no more uncertainty, no more depression, no more excuses and no more failure. Time to take charge of my own life. I am the one in control of me so I should act like it.
(can you tell I've been watching Loosing It With Jillian Micheals?!?!?!?!)
LET'S GO
it's 9am and I am going to the gym. a little cardio and a pilates class. then i am taking the day head on and making it my own
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
the countdown begins
so i've been mia for quite some time now. both taking time to reflect and sitting on the couch. this is it. in 5 weeks i will be 27. and in 5 weeks i will loose 10 pounds. i want to commit to more but i want to make it feasible so i won't fall off the wagon again.
i fell off the wagon a couple of weeks ago but luckily it didn't drive away without me. i am ready to get back on and make a difference in my life.
what's changed? i went to boston to see my friends. they are my support network and needed to see them to regain control over myself. i needed to be with the people that love and support me and know me best. yes, my boyfriend fulfills that role but i needed that girlfriend bond. my trip reassured me that my life isn't falling apart - it just sucks right now but it will get better soon. i also discovered that my friends are all going through rough patches as well. that made me feel better in the sense that i'm not alone in going through some muddy water.
i also decided to talk to my doctor about getting antidepressants. he called it "situational depression" and told me it was completely normal for what i am going through right now - new state, new living situation, no friends or support network (face to face interaction), and no job......yeah, it's depressing. so i started taking the pills to give me that boost to get me off the couch.
here it goes...again....this time for real.....
today's plan:
water
exercise
vitamins
the rest is up to me.
ready, set......here i go
i fell off the wagon a couple of weeks ago but luckily it didn't drive away without me. i am ready to get back on and make a difference in my life.
what's changed? i went to boston to see my friends. they are my support network and needed to see them to regain control over myself. i needed to be with the people that love and support me and know me best. yes, my boyfriend fulfills that role but i needed that girlfriend bond. my trip reassured me that my life isn't falling apart - it just sucks right now but it will get better soon. i also discovered that my friends are all going through rough patches as well. that made me feel better in the sense that i'm not alone in going through some muddy water.
i also decided to talk to my doctor about getting antidepressants. he called it "situational depression" and told me it was completely normal for what i am going through right now - new state, new living situation, no friends or support network (face to face interaction), and no job......yeah, it's depressing. so i started taking the pills to give me that boost to get me off the couch.
here it goes...again....this time for real.....
today's plan:
water
exercise
vitamins
the rest is up to me.
ready, set......here i go
Friday, May 28, 2010
Day 20
Today I want to do something around the house.
Craig and I thought of a new plan of attack for me. I always make these ridiculously long lists of "things to do" for each day....inevitably, I would never finish everything on the list leaving me feeling that my day was spent do nothing. Well, now I am just going to make one statement about what I want to accomplish that day - and it can happen at any point in the day. Yesterday I wanted to exercise, and I did. Today I want to spice up our apartment....let's see if I can accomplish this one thing!
Up and oil pulled (day 33 of it!)
I was going to go to the gym, but then realized I have to work on the house (oh no, now it's just an excuse!)
Hung out, hung out, fell asleep and missed the chance to speak with my mentor
Spoke with my mom and found out my grandmother isn't doing well so they are flying to Slovakia this weekend. Craig and I decided that we will go to my parents this weekend and help them prepare for their departure
Cleaned the apartment
Decided to hang some floating shelves and add picture frames
Craig came home and loved it!
I made spaghetti and turkey meatballs from scratch!! It was delicious!
It was a good day!
Craig and I thought of a new plan of attack for me. I always make these ridiculously long lists of "things to do" for each day....inevitably, I would never finish everything on the list leaving me feeling that my day was spent do nothing. Well, now I am just going to make one statement about what I want to accomplish that day - and it can happen at any point in the day. Yesterday I wanted to exercise, and I did. Today I want to spice up our apartment....let's see if I can accomplish this one thing!
Up and oil pulled (day 33 of it!)
I was going to go to the gym, but then realized I have to work on the house (oh no, now it's just an excuse!)
Hung out, hung out, fell asleep and missed the chance to speak with my mentor
Spoke with my mom and found out my grandmother isn't doing well so they are flying to Slovakia this weekend. Craig and I decided that we will go to my parents this weekend and help them prepare for their departure
Cleaned the apartment
Decided to hang some floating shelves and add picture frames
Craig came home and loved it!
I made spaghetti and turkey meatballs from scratch!! It was delicious!
It was a good day!
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